2005-11-12. Pardon me - I am having a teenage angst moment I feel like I have been splintered. Like I am lost in a fog. Watching my life from the outside. I told J that I wanted security, safety. I don't know if that described it well enough. But I don't know how to put it into words myself. I suppose I want something I can *count* on. Boundries. Promises kept. Promises to me. I want to have that safe place with one person and them have it with me. I want to be a part of something that is magical and sets the world aflame and is free of doubt, worry and that that is based on trust and a mutual respect. I need someone to be there for *me* as much as I am for them. Someone who stimulates me and excites me. Makes me laugh and can debate art vs. life. Someone who finds me invaluable. I have found someone who does all of that. But mostly I need to figure out the answer to the riddle "the only one that can save her is herself". Seems so simple, doesn't it? |
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