2003-12-12. I am a total fake
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Tonight my friend said that I look ed great - happy. After he walked away all I could do was laugh. "I fooled him!!" I said. I'm really good at that ya know. As much as I will talk about me all night - I really hate actually talking about me. I think I just am terrified that people will find out what a crumbling person I am inside.

I don't want anyone to touch my pain. Or even look at it... Which only makes it worse.