2002-07-02. Agony
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Okay, maybe it's my reluctance to change my mindset... I mean, I should be working extra hard to make things better, right? I mean, he wants to work things out, or else he'd move back to NY, right? I should be the better girlfriend now. Isn't this my cue?

I guess it bugs me that he's telling people we're broken up. I think that is officially what's making me spastic. I want to tell him that if we are going to be working things out I have to have the ball and chain locked. I don't want to keep pouring my heart into it if he might just split at any moment. See ya... Grrr...

Does this make any sense???