2002-07-03. ...help
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Did I ask for this maddening confusion?? As soon as I resolve to be the best I can and turn the girlish charm back on instead of the hissing venomous demon I had become, I am faced with coldness and uncertainty. With a blah mood as it was said to be. So blah I guess is the new codeword for I might decide that I hate Mandi today, but I'm gonna keep you guessing and tweaked out by doing this. Don't you understand that I love you??? I don't deserve this! And if I wasn't so afraid of losing you I would be screaming this in your face!!