2002-12-26. Selfish Me... I am not sure what to do and this pains me in ridiculous ways, but I cry too much over this it seems and find myself questioning if I should ever have children because of her... I wonder if I'm a horrible person a lot... I need to clean up my life, really, and not get lost on the distractions. I just don�t know what to do with her, what I did that was wrong with her. What I can do to make it right with her... Sometimes the right answer hurts, but, sometimes you know it�s right... or that it�s all you can do. I just have a lot on my mind right now and a lot to sort through. So I�m sorry if I�m acting distant or short or something, but things are really tough for me right now in annoying stupid ways. I know I have it pretty good, but I am in a pretty foul place lately so just let me be. I�ve tried very hard to make the right choices in my life and think I�ve done a pretty fair job of dealing with what I�ve been dealt with minimal negative fallout. I need to live my life and do things that are right for me, not worrying so much about what others need. I expend far too much energy worrying about taking care of other people. I�m sorry if it hurts people, but I can�t be friends with or heal everyone if I can�t even have a moment to focus on myself. You can call me a bitch or call me selfish all you want, but fuck you. Obviously you and I shouldn't be friends then, should we?
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