2001-08-16. Hypno-circles of life Haboring resentment is like keeping a toxin under your skin, infecting your spirit. I try to listen to my heart and do the right thing... I try. But it's really hard. I've been wondering lately what I did to deserve some of the crap that I've been getting. I'm hoping it's more of a preperation for later in life. Teaching me to appreciate when it's good. It's exhausting, living like this. Running around, scraping by, hoping that something will change, something will give. It's aging me. And I don't like that. I keep wondering if I'm doing something wrong. Every little thing I do, I seem to scrutinize lately. *Is that the best thing to do?* Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting all alone. Maybe I just feel overburdened. I bet Alyx feels the same way. But I wish I could turn over some responsibility to him. I'm not one to usually ask for help. But, now, I'm almost desperate to ask, and I'm terrified of rejection... Typical. |
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